To My Beloved Brother & Sister

Dear my beloved brother & sister,

Apologize me for wrote this silly letter, but i'm deeply sure this is not a silly feeling.


My dearest brother,

I'm really sure that you've already predict this will happened. You are the only one who can predict what steps will i choose.., in other word you are the only one in family who know me very well. I'm sorry i must take this way...and i know it will really hurt you Brother.

Brother, you know me as a girl who knows much about Christianity and diligently served in Church, until that day. The day that i thought the life was so unfair to me. I become so hard, so selfish_just to hide my weaknesses. But now is different Brother, he changes me a lot! By the almost 2 years process, he has change me in to a soft_sincere_girl. No one can do that to me_until that_12 May 07_came...

Brother, it is not only about_a stupid thing_called love. It is different, if we have another words beside love to express this, that words must be the reason why i want to live with him.

My beloved Sister,

I'm sorry for not submissive to your advices. I understand about your worries, Sist..i know you are really love me, trust me i do too. I love this man with all my soul. Not only with passion, but like i have wrote above...this time is different.

Not only love, but it about responsibility.
I often fell in love_you know me_Sist, but never i talk about responsibility before in my love journey. This time i can understand what responsibility word means. In this love i learns how to build a two way relation, how to manage our steps, how to keep patient although we've down...and look i used "our" not my anymore... :)

Sist, i just don't know what should i say to you when we meet..., i love you very much..i don't wanna loose you...indeed Sist... I'm hoping what i have wrote won't change anything on us..


Finally, my brother & sister...forgive me for choosing this way. I want to live with him, hope both of you can understand and accept my way. I just love both of you, please dont leave me...please do understand & forgive me.

-love you-

..i'm in love..

Try to breath..but the air is too tight..

Try to close my eyes..but your shadow is too real..

Couldn’t help my self..am I falling in love?

The more I deny it.. the more I addicted to you

Gosh, what can I do?

Just wishpering your name and praying to have you beside me..

Forever

Dear, if only you can understood

..and then...where r we??

From two become three, four, five and we didn’t realize we are becoming twelve today… but where we are right now?

Senin kemarin temen deket gw waktu di TarQ nelp…

Temen gw : “Bo..si Eza mau nikah akhir November..” (fyi Eza itu mantannya waktu pas

kuliah)

Gw : “haha…masih cinta lu? Santai aja kale…mau gw temenin ntar?”

Temen gw : “geblegh!..bukan itu masalahnya…sebel ajah gw kalah start…”

Gw : ..(ini org ga penting bgt siy….hari gini masih takut kalah start)..

Temen gw : “Advice donk Bo…, lu malah diem2 ajah…

“Btw, lu skrg ga asik bgt sih..diajakin ngumpul ga pernah

dateng..kebanyakan alasan lu Bo”

Ga tau kenapa kata-kata dia barusan kena banget di gw…

Abis telepon ditutup gw langsung inget 1 hal…darn!!!! I forget her birthday last week!!

Stupid!!

Malamnya gw keinget.., dulu gw tiap hari pulang ma dia, pulang kuliah cabut ke Mall. Hampir tiap sabtu ngopi-ngopi bareng. Ga ada satu hal pun yang ga gw tau tentang dia. We were very close that years…Tapi sekarang gw lupa ultahnya dia…

Kemarin siang gw terima email dari temen deket gw waktu di SMU..

“Eh Yanti yang super (so’) sibuk…, kalo dah jadi pengangguran telpon gw ya…”

Ps : kl ditelpon angkat yeeeee…”

Hmmmpp…damn..i really hate her words!!

Tapi jangan-jangan emang gw yang so’ sibuk yah…?

Sore kemarin iseng-iseng gw curhat ke temen deket gw (yang jujur paling gw kagumi). Yang akhirnya sampai pada satu kesimpulan bahwa persahabatan selalu ada titik jenuhnya, bukan berarti persabahatan itu berakhir tapi mungkin untuk sementara tidak bersama dulu. Masing-masing memiliki prioritasnya sendiri yang secara tidak langsung membuat mereka (untuk sementara) “menomor duakan” sahabatnya.

Malamnya gw mikir.., ga rela ama kesimpulan tadi sore. Tapi gw malu sendiri…Ternyata sedikit banyak gw lah si pionir yang menomor duakan persahabatan gw. Hiks. Shame on me!!

Dengan segala kerendahan hati, gw mohon maaf ke kalian semua atas segala kesalahan & kekhilafan gw sehingga selalu melupakan kalian_sahabat-sahabat. Ga pernah ada maksud untuk melupakan kalian, hanya saja gw terlalu bodoh untuk bisa membagi waktu antara kerjaan, pacaran dan persahabatan…

Love you all…